warning. i got inspired :)

people. arm yourselves. pick up that permanent magic marker and arm yourselves!
Draw the Line. make it Really clear and distinct. make it one even you yourself can't step over because we're simply.too.kind.&.soft.hearted.albeit.hardcore.exterior.

no more letting ourselves teeter on the line or stride over the line because we're too nice. cause you noe wad. we're girls who get our hearts broken. there're things we shouldnt let ourselves do. things we should stand firm on. times we should say no. times we have to put ourselves first. we have to stop putting ourselves on the line and wish.hope.& pray that this time will be different. that maybe this time we won't get burnt. that we won't get hurt.

we all make mistakes & misjudge. but we can try and guard our hearts. dun let that stop us from giving & loving & from being the wonderful people that He had in mind, that He made us to be. but let us sometimes remember, we aren't made of steel as we would like to think. we too sometimes break.


hi mark :) thank you for always wanting to the best mark-er i will ever find.

okay girls. you can "wah lau" me now for being so corny. hahahaha.  ¶ 8:02 PM 0 Comments

  wanto complain sigh.
am super tired of writing (-gah-).
so i shall jus be lazy and blog :)

i'll jus come out & say it.
i've been the ultimate slacker. i've had..almost 3 weeks to finish this take home exam im supposed to be doing. but in typical elaine-the-lazyass-fashion, i've left it to the last minute. (you noe what's retarded? today day-light saving begun. so the time is fast forwarded by an hr & i didnt noe until i realized my tv progs started an hr early. thus i lost one precious hr of essay writing.jus like that. unfair right?!)

not to mention. shopping online at abercrombie & victoria secrets doesnt help la. surf surf surf to look for pretty things (which there is an abundance of) and deciding which ones are prettiest and which i can allow myself to wear becos -note to self- im not 18 anymore -ppffft- (i promise you joanaass. it's not my intention to drag you down Distraction lane with me) also, checking mininova every other hr to see if Laguna Beach ep 14 is on yet. -face falls- notch yet. & then there're all the times when my mind drifts & wanders & i start thinking about all the wonderful places i'll go to in 3 weeks. all the make-us-happy nights ;) oh. and then thinking about the christmas party that i wanto have. the new years party that i also want. & then there's willing my little finger fingernails to grow quicker and catch up with the rest so i can go for french manicure asap. & then there's thinking about the wonderful things grace & i can cook for the other frower girls.

haiyo.
how to finish essay you tell me.   ¶ 5:55 PM 0 Comments

  bored. it's been 10days since the last ep of Laguna Beach was uploaded on minova. have been waiting all week for new (and possibly -gasp- final) ep but dunch have..*slumps in corner* baaahh. joanaass, you have anot huuuhh??

oh, some stuff i read today that i thought to share with my lovelies..heart you guys MUCH!!! :)

"a man of lowly spirit gains honour" Proverbs 29:23.
(not really valid excuse to mope ard all the time tho...but be encouragd my dears!!!)

this one i really like,
"when God measures a man, He puts the tape around the Heart instead of the Head."
(yeay!!!!!)
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  shout out hooorraay
&

CONGRATULATIONS

my friends!! you are one step closer to owning the road!! woohoo!! :)

also. newflash from alcoholic-teeny-bopper-wannabe jacqueen. indochine has good deals for bubbly on weeknites. are we there?

eh. answer lei...*poke*
i noe you guys wanna go.
u noe you do. ;)


hmm. on a side note. angel reminded me of happy hr at walas. & martini galore at "place that shall not be named & will not be made known except to those who go."


we need non-alcoholic gatherings.



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  HELLO HELLO!! HELLO HELLO!!! *waves hands around*

-AHEM-

30.nov.2005
it's a wednesday.

need i say more? ;)

then jacqueen say we are atas pple. therefore we are too good for icky young things. so right. we shall venture into fairly unknown territory & seek out velvet tooooo.

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  such it is. i'm doing okay. i will survive.

like any other student, i'll get thru the exams, somehow. it'll seem like the most impossible thing at times, but i'll get thru it.

like any other girlfriend, i'll feel like giving it all up cause it can get so difficult and tiring. but i noe i won't, cause i can't & more importantly, i really don't want to. cos i do love you.

like any other christian, i'll feel the furthest from God when i need Him the most. but i noe. i noe deep down that He isn't far off at all. He's right beside me but i jus dun noe it.

like any other friend. we'll have problems at time. dilemmas and bitch fits. but i noe i wouldn't change anything for the world. cause these are my flower girls. & they always will be.

like any other daughter, i'll feel like my parents are the most dysfunctional and impossible ever. but i wouldn't swop them for anything cause i noe, in the end, they do things for a reason.

like any other sister, my sister can seem like the biggest pain at times. but i noe i've got a special place in her heart. one no one else can replace.

like any other person, i'll have problems, but i'll survive. time will pass & solutions will come in their own time. in His time.

it's all good.  ¶ 9:46 PM 0 Comments

  of the things it is. prehaps the
one
i find most
difficult
is

love is not selfish.  ¶ 7:06 PM 0 Comments

  angel: there there...we all want don't we?? :) oh & i saw the Super Sweet 16 ep where this girl sophia emerged from cancan-girls. also absolute brat. the worst thing was she totally disrespected her mom on camera. good grief.

grace: very true..but i didn't really mean flowers like flowers. i guess it's metaphorical. altho my "flowers" are flowers. =)

jooanaass: hahaha..which Laguna Beach ep jo?? latest as in ep13?? i dunch wanna say anything in case you watched a different wan. my latest is ep13 la..& was gonna burn for you. so i guess u're up to date?? ;) oh & i got the title from the "footprints" calender my mom snuck into my luggage when she re-packed it. hahaha.

sarmarntha: helloOOo!! make sure you dun forget kay!!! :) might need to change date tho...heh..sorry!!! :)

& you: you gave me more than a flower (& a vase & giant leaf) u noe. :) much much more.   ¶ 3:11 PM 0 Comments

  swoon.. i am a romantic at heart.

was talking to irene couplea days before i left & we came to the topic of what one of the most treasured traits in her other half was. for her it was Charm. the kind that makes her swoon. light headed. weak kneed. & reduces her to blubbering idiot. she asked me what my equivalent of 'Charm' was, i said 'Respect'. i noe. yawn. but it's important to me albeit boring.
today. i think i noe what makes me swoon. light headed. weak kneed. reduces me to blubbering idiot - romance. mayb i've seen too many hollywood movies & read too many trashy novels. but watching Nick Lachey & Travis Barker romance their wives really made me go "waaaa....." i guess with mr lachey it's like. duh. 98degs boy. BUT with hardcore-full body tattooed & pierced-blink182 drummer-mr travis barker, it's the last thing i'd ever expect from him. maybe that's why when he shows the world what a Huge romantic he is, it's all the more "power".

i really try & be practical. & i think i've done quite well, succeeding in conditioning myself to think that practicality is the right & the only way to go. i really meant it when i said i don't wan flowers on v day. or the candlelight dinner. or huge bouquet at the airport. or any R&J balcony reenactments. becos that's cheesy. but i do wan the surprise single stalk (note: my garden has flowers!!). the prepared dinner of a slice of cheese slapped between 2 slices of bread (note: not even TOAST!!) . opening the car door for me jus cos. learning how i take my tea.
yet i wonder if im being too demanding & if i should count my blessings & not be an ingrate. but i also wonder if the ''s'porean guy sydrome'' has convinced me that flowers are a stupid symbol for love. that men jus dun cook. that i can open the door myself becos im a perfectly abled woman & if we opened our own doors we'd save time & be on our way much quicker. that wine is the new tea (or coffee) so i should move with the times.

when i say i don't want flowers or godivas just cause, i mean it. but it'd be nice if i got some anyways. when i say i can do the dishes on my own i mean it, but alittle help never hurt anyone. i think when most girls say they dun wan the guy to waste money they mean it. but. we really wouldn't get mad if you did. once in a while. we might Pretend for abit & scold you alittle. but deep down inside we're mush. basically the more out-of-point & random it is. the better you'll get us & the further the brownie points'll go.

girls, i guess we have to be reasonable too huh. & we have to remember they are different & that's why we love them.

thank you for the songs. the many poems. the car rides. the cards. 23 days.  ¶ 1:12 PM 0 Comments

  updatesss

• my carpet is back! in place! YEAAYY!!! for the first time in 2mths?? i will get to sleep in my room, not out in the living room. and my clothes arent all over the place outside, but in my cupboard =). altho i have to say, i really enjoyed the convenience of having everything in one place. my laptop, home phone & printer right in front of the teevee so i can do everything at the sametime.
• i get to sit for a make up test!!! my professor actually called me on my mobile. she was like "hi, this is professor anne castles. i got your note & emails - from Ben (my tutor) & yourself" i felt so pai se for breathing down her neck liddat. but i was gun cheong wad. (no doubt in typical sporean fashion)
• got my exam time table. thank God it's well spaced out & it's all over before i have to leave melb on the 19th (i was initially worried my exams might last longer). actually this sem i've been blessed with really good exam timetable. enough time in between to revise & stil tour abit with mark. & even a couplea days after exams & before i leave to tour outside of city area. we'll prob drive out to see the 12 apostles!! & mayb go for a swim with dolphins/whales!!! whoopee!!! :)
• my o2 mini died. i was mid way thru conversation with mark n it died. i will be reaaallly irritated if when it comes back from repairs, all my numbers are Gone. argh. as it is, i cant transfer important numbers from my spoilt phone to temporary one cause i cant even turn it on. thank goodness for you pple with either very easy numbers to remm. or those who've had theirs since jc. :) hahaha.

THE FOLLOWING WILL PROB ONLY BE APPLICABLE TO JO: i discovered new reality series on mtv!!! "My Super Sweet Sixteen" basically about spoilt brats organizing their sweet 16ths and have no budget la. there's this girl who spent 200k loh. on one friggin party and it wasnt even that great.

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  Real World. i noe it's tough, but i've got you now.
i noe it's tough, but we're gonna do it together.
i noe it's tough, but you'll never be alone.
i noe it's tough, but i noe you'll make it.

it's amazing wad the toughest guy's guy can come up with @ times.  ¶ 11:38 AM 0 Comments

  bags. shoes. flowers. or rather frowers :)

thank you my dearests. thank you for wanting to stand by the road and hand out frowers. except, u noe i really wan all you guys along on the trip with me. i guess some trips i have to make on my own. but then i'll bring back many many wonderful presents for all of you ;) heh heh heh.

on a more. tragic note. im kindda under the weather. but recovering slowly. also. & more importantly, i kindda missed a very important in class test while i was away. apparently it's a prerequisite. so am now trying to arrange something with my professor. please pray lots my dears. am waiting for her reply. yikes -shudder-  ¶ 8:33 PM 0 Comments

  overkill on angel's note: does that mean that once we all start working it's byebye social life forever. no more meet at lunchtime, shop till our feet hurt n there's no where else to go, so let's do dinner. & then, i dun wanna go home yet, let's have drinks. finally when there's no more light except those from street lamps, head lights, signboards and mobile phones, we head home without having to worry about waking up in 5hrs for work. are our best years over? how do the next years become the most glorious years of our lives when we have to worry about having enough pants.skirts.jackets.shirts to wear the next day. or when we have to watch our backs so closely we can't make real friends at work. or when we leave the house it's dark and when we return it's dark again. or when it takes 3weeks to schedule a coffee session that will maybe last 20mins?

how lei?

what about when we all get married. & then have kids? where does lunch at marmalade pantry fit in between meetings. school plays. grocery shopping. spouse time. self time. does it actually happen to meer mortals who only have 24hrs in a day and require at least 8hrs of sleep?

oh my.

i always want to make effort to keep us going. to call and check to see how you're doing. to remember when you have dive trips and when you have business trips. to ask about your court appearances. to remind you never to stop with your poetry. to laugh with you no matter where we are. to share our laughs and fights. to ask about your parents and yours. to be able to watch you fall asleep on your 'dream' couch. to remind you that love is not sad and about expectations. to let you noe i believe you will love & be loved. to go to movies and prop my feet up without attracting killer looks. to hear your stories cause they make me laugh endlessly. to let you noe your family isn't dysfunctional. to help you thru the curve balls that come your way. to help you believe in yourself. to be able to talk to you like we do now. to remember how we were then. to be able to swallow my pride and tell you what 'nothing' is. to share XLBs with you. to reassure you that teenybopper is okay. to be your listening ear. to help you with cooking when i can. to never let you down. to remind you of your dreams. to be happy. to remember ILYM. you to remember ILYM. to be able to cry infront of you. to close my eyes and see You. to stop listening and hear You. to help you laugh thru it all.
to be your friend. and yours. and yours.

happy 10th mth sweetie. :)  ¶ 12:27 AM 0 Comments

  hello my dears...yes i do realize i've been slacking off on blog..but i can't help it. i plead innocent on the basis that my place is still equipped with dial up & i hate using slow internet. plus, my neighbours, the tans, whom you all might recall, i was previously borrowing my connection from, seem to be online very infrequently, so i cannot borrow.

but tonight, they are online & i can blog.

have about 2 days of singapore left. the mth did fly by la. as time always does. but im very looking forward to mark's visit to melbourne, for my exams to end soon & for me to come back home. all that should happen within, a mth & 7 days. yesh, so soon, very fast. yet too long.

i think about it sometimes and wonder if im missing out on the whole experience (& point) of studying overseas. there are a few things hopefully get to do before i graduate and come back here and start working -gag-.

• go skiing/snow boarding
• tour around australia, see the other cities
• drive out to the suburbs of melbourne
• go horseriding in the countryside

at the sametime, there are things that i wish i had gotten to do this mth i was back

• find time to get mom a new computer
• have long day of slacking wih friends without anyone having to take off
• go for manicure with girls
• go to oscar's again
• take short trip somewhere
• go shopping and actually manage to buy something i want that isn't the last piece. (i promise it's all out of the system now ;) )

thank you to all the dears who went around shoe shopping with me :). i hope i get to drive you girls around a bit more next time round. i promise to practice car park parking so we can go to places that dun valet park :P. i had many many wonderful tea and coffee and moet sessions -big smile- thank you babes. i finally got to attend a wedding of someone i noe 1st hand, and not my mom's aunty's cousin's sister's ;). on the other hand, i still wonder who of my darling friends will be the first. hahaha.

a couplea of my secondary sch friends and i took a poll. we all picked 1st & 2nd to get married amongst us. im honoured many felt i was prime candidate. hahaha. but i jus thought, the day we all attend the wedding of the first amongst us to get married, will be a fabulous day.

i quote jo "someboday please get married. soon!!" ;)

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  stolen goods to have what you've never had, you must do what you've never done.  ¶ 10:00 AM 0 Comments

  red red room. i'm leaving a trail of flowers and stars everywhere i go. i guess cheap things from chinatown dunch last very long..still contemplating putting some stars on my phone. but then my friends will think im even more ah lian than i already come across. bahh. im not that ah lian waaad.....rite. in any case, i noe i am not a lonely ah lian. ha ha ha. hello joanaasss...hahahaha..

looking forward to dinner on wednesday before newton moves. yeay.

hmm...we havent clubbed yet hor??? shall we?

thank you for asking me all the time. i still feel like i do so much better with letters cause sometimes the words jus dun come. i'm sorry i made you sad. but now i noe what to say when you ask. now i dare venture into that area. & i dare say.  ¶ 8:05 PM 0 Comments