belle du jour
what to do.
when "a day at a time" doesnt really apply cause everyday the same ghosts haunt you.when bags & shoes no longer make you smile.when you're left entertaining the possibility.when you're reminded of her laughter.when you arent suposed to get your lashes wet.when you get so so mad but cannot do anything about it.when you know he's hurting but you just cannot summon the courage or strength to lend a hand.when the pple around you do not know Discretion.when the words are at the tip of your tongue but you bite on it.when you're up in the middle of the night waiting for your hair to air dry because you're too tired to pat it down.when he offers you a cup of coffee that you noe you shouldnt accept.when all you want to do about everything is nothing.when tears fill your eyes and you know you'll feel so much better if you just let it all out.when the only person she seems to care about it herself.when you dont know where to go from here.
when it's too early to be jaded.
when apparently the 2nd year is the toughest.
when it's only your voice that you hear.
when 9hrs of sleep still leaves you tired.
when all the answers you have don't answer anything.