belle du jour
Sunday, June 26
stop it.
barrage: an enormous, concentrated outpouring. at someone/something. my word of the day.
i donated blood today, for the first time at Red Cross Singapore. it didnt hurt - honest. & i felt really good after. in a way it's like, atoning physically (in a very undefiled sense) for what i feel im doing wrong mentally & emotionally. & for all the other things i feel i could do to help but jus cant get off my lazy ass to do. hmM. i guess in a slight way, it's like having scenery while i travel on this guilt trip. it doesnt make a difference, but it does distract. i dun wanna add "difficult" to my unglamourous list of vices so i will take the distraction. so please dun let me have some unknown blood virus that harms rather than helps whoever receives my pint.
my closing thought for today while i ride on my neighbour's wireless connection - some pple mull. some people share. others question. some shove them into a corner. certain ones let go & forget. someone tell me which causes the least pain. that's all i wanna noe. i feel like ive tried them all yet none work for me. no matter what it is i end up deciding to do it hurts like hell & that sucks.
i hate that in my eyes, you can do no wrong. ¶ 12:41 AM 0 Comments
i donated blood today, for the first time at Red Cross Singapore. it didnt hurt - honest. & i felt really good after. in a way it's like, atoning physically (in a very undefiled sense) for what i feel im doing wrong mentally & emotionally. & for all the other things i feel i could do to help but jus cant get off my lazy ass to do. hmM. i guess in a slight way, it's like having scenery while i travel on this guilt trip. it doesnt make a difference, but it does distract. i dun wanna add "difficult" to my unglamourous list of vices so i will take the distraction. so please dun let me have some unknown blood virus that harms rather than helps whoever receives my pint.
my closing thought for today while i ride on my neighbour's wireless connection - some pple mull. some people share. others question. some shove them into a corner. certain ones let go & forget. someone tell me which causes the least pain. that's all i wanna noe. i feel like ive tried them all yet none work for me. no matter what it is i end up deciding to do it hurts like hell & that sucks.
i hate that in my eyes, you can do no wrong. ¶ 12:41 AM 0 Comments
Friday, June 24
war torn area
i went to the mango sale & came out empty handed. i actually had a nice pair of culottes, nice thin cotton material & a couplea skirts. but as i got in line to pay. i noticed a few other OLDER women holding the same items. hmM. *raised eyebrow* then i thought about what if i ever ended up at the same place as some other woman, in the same culottes or top or anything. *shudder* so i decided to do everyone a favour and put the things back where i found them. & walk out. i swear i heard a crescendo of sighs of relief as i exited the queue. i also thought i saw a couplea raised eyebrows that a female seemed to be walking out of the sale empty handed..oh well.
another thing. mango sales are great for psychologists to do studies at i reckon. seriously. i stepped in there & it seemed like past the threshold of those make shift doors, all the women 'senses' are heightened. if men thought women were scary on a normal daily basis. wait till they go into a mango sale. women are extra territorial - the way they guard their stack of clothes, shelves, racks, could put the gurkhas to shame. protective/defensive - dont even think of glancing their way. let them think you're eyeing their stacks & you're finished. we dont need NS to teach us self defense!! *pffft* patient - look at the queues to get in, to pay to try the clothes on; 'nuff said. forgiving - trample on their toes, shove abit and they might begin to curse or stare, but the moment their eye catches something vaguely attractive all is forgotten :) add resilient to the list. singaporean women rise to the occasion. if ever they cant find jobs in CBD area, send them to train with the cirque de soleil - have you seen the contortionist acts these women get up to when they attempt to change in public? no easy feat i'll tell you. the mathematician in all singaporean women materializes come mango sale. loiter around some of these women, listen to the way they churn out the price of their clothes after discount. haha. amazing!!!
singaporean women applaud yourselves. ¶ 1:45 PM 0 Comments
another thing. mango sales are great for psychologists to do studies at i reckon. seriously. i stepped in there & it seemed like past the threshold of those make shift doors, all the women 'senses' are heightened. if men thought women were scary on a normal daily basis. wait till they go into a mango sale. women are extra territorial - the way they guard their stack of clothes, shelves, racks, could put the gurkhas to shame. protective/defensive - dont even think of glancing their way. let them think you're eyeing their stacks & you're finished. we dont need NS to teach us self defense!! *pffft* patient - look at the queues to get in, to pay to try the clothes on; 'nuff said. forgiving - trample on their toes, shove abit and they might begin to curse or stare, but the moment their eye catches something vaguely attractive all is forgotten :) add resilient to the list. singaporean women rise to the occasion. if ever they cant find jobs in CBD area, send them to train with the cirque de soleil - have you seen the contortionist acts these women get up to when they attempt to change in public? no easy feat i'll tell you. the mathematician in all singaporean women materializes come mango sale. loiter around some of these women, listen to the way they churn out the price of their clothes after discount. haha. amazing!!!
singaporean women applaud yourselves. ¶ 1:45 PM 0 Comments
Wednesday, June 22
loving my neighbours as myself.
''batman begins'' is an unfortunate title as that entails sequels. which is so wrong. aside from the fairly passable effects, the plot was sucky. katie holmes hardly had 5 lines, not that im a fan of hers. batman's gadgets were quite cool, but far fetched. & tho it was the usual 2hrs...it seemed more like3+ hrs.
dun lemme put you off watching it tho...it's jus one of those shows you have to watch to say you've watched it & thus can form your own opinion on it...buteven mark got bored towards the end..i mean. there really is no way for the story to end, cept batman practically rising from the dead & defeating the gazillion villains single handedly.
OH!! redeeming factor - Alfred. batman's butler. very english. dry humour. very nice. haha..he should've taken over katie holmes' role.
ps: i love my neighbours. they gimme wireless internet. :P ¶ 12:28 AM 0 Comments
dun lemme put you off watching it tho...it's jus one of those shows you have to watch to say you've watched it & thus can form your own opinion on it...buteven mark got bored towards the end..i mean. there really is no way for the story to end, cept batman practically rising from the dead & defeating the gazillion villains single handedly.
OH!! redeeming factor - Alfred. batman's butler. very english. dry humour. very nice. haha..he should've taken over katie holmes' role.
ps: i love my neighbours. they gimme wireless internet. :P ¶ 12:28 AM 0 Comments
Thursday, June 16
now.
im back again my dearests!! :)
am currently @ starbucks @holland v. amidst a very noisy buncha kids. yes kids. anyone below 20 is to me. a kid. anyways, mostly jc people, soms PIONEERS!! heh.. surprisingly enough..no one from ac. -hmm- but yea, a whole throng of 18 year olds apparently studing. but spending more time sqealing & running about & talking. very loudly. eEw. hahaha. have managed to been let in on their plans for the weekend. some bbqs going on. one party tho, had to be tragically cancelled cause the hosts' parents decided NOT to go away for the weekend & they don't allow alcohol at the party. (mayb becos most of you will be under 18, no?) and so. the people have found the party useless to go to. becos there's no alcohol. aiyoh. young ones these days. *tsk*
mark brought back yummylicious Godiva liquer. OOh. -drool- & i bought the new vodka? ermm. i think it's raspberry? *wink* will look for cocktail recipes to make deserts/cocktils @ our next gathering. say when my friends. oh please make it soon.. ¶ 3:57 PM 0 Comments
am currently @ starbucks @holland v. amidst a very noisy buncha kids. yes kids. anyone below 20 is to me. a kid. anyways, mostly jc people, soms PIONEERS!! heh.. surprisingly enough..no one from ac. -hmm- but yea, a whole throng of 18 year olds apparently studing. but spending more time sqealing & running about & talking. very loudly. eEw. hahaha. have managed to been let in on their plans for the weekend. some bbqs going on. one party tho, had to be tragically cancelled cause the hosts' parents decided NOT to go away for the weekend & they don't allow alcohol at the party. (mayb becos most of you will be under 18, no?) and so. the people have found the party useless to go to. becos there's no alcohol. aiyoh. young ones these days. *tsk*
mark brought back yummylicious Godiva liquer. OOh. -drool- & i bought the new vodka? ermm. i think it's raspberry? *wink* will look for cocktail recipes to make deserts/cocktils @ our next gathering. say when my friends. oh please make it soon.. ¶ 3:57 PM 0 Comments
Saturday, June 11
www.one.org
hey peeps! check this out. get on the wagon to help fight poverty. altho it's mostly in america. but, we all get to sign up to urge the US govt to increase their budget. check out wad jus ONE% of the budget could do to help all the countries in dire poverty. go go go k??
WWW.ONE.ORG ¶ 8:36 PM 0 Comments
WWW.ONE.ORG ¶ 8:36 PM 0 Comments
Friday, June 10
WED. YEAY! WED. YEAY!
yup..i'll be back on wed :) in like..4.5days. which is also the amt of time i have left to study for my final paper. minus tmr from 9-5 cos i'll be watching the SATC final season marathon! it'll be so good. back to back SATC. will be so brain dead after. which, these days, aint anything new.
watched alot of teevee tonight too. i suspect im too close to the tv. what's the minimum recommended dist ah....anybody? i think it's 3m or something? 3ft? hMm...anyways..i think dakota fanning ish so so wonderful. & it isnt jus her ability to cry jus.like.that. but she's jus very good. specially for her age. i mean she did reduce like. 10 of my friends to a buncha sniffling-kleenex passing-shoulder lending-aww-ing-gals thru out 'i am sam" haha. that was so good. i remm zhengkai walking into my room half way thru the movie & upon seeing THAT many girls crying. he left as quickly. hahaha. i think ian n him were stuck outside my room for almost the entire time. they didnt wanna come in wad! haha :)
ohh..& i was watching this prog called "E! true hollywood stories" kindda like, everyday a different celebrity is showcased. & E! basically covers the beginnings, tragedies, downfalls, yada yada of different celeb's lives. keanu reeves' story is pretty tragic. his gf died in a road accident 2 yrs (i think?) after she gave birth to their still borned baby..then river phoenix whom he was close too OD-ed. so sad. (i digress. river phoenix was quite cute..hmm)
im once again reminded i lead a very charmed life. dun need the glamour or the red carpets. im fine where i am thank you very much. :) ¶ 9:34 PM 0 Comments
watched alot of teevee tonight too. i suspect im too close to the tv. what's the minimum recommended dist ah....anybody? i think it's 3m or something? 3ft? hMm...anyways..i think dakota fanning ish so so wonderful. & it isnt jus her ability to cry jus.like.that. but she's jus very good. specially for her age. i mean she did reduce like. 10 of my friends to a buncha sniffling-kleenex passing-shoulder lending-aww-ing-gals thru out 'i am sam" haha. that was so good. i remm zhengkai walking into my room half way thru the movie & upon seeing THAT many girls crying. he left as quickly. hahaha. i think ian n him were stuck outside my room for almost the entire time. they didnt wanna come in wad! haha :)
ohh..& i was watching this prog called "E! true hollywood stories" kindda like, everyday a different celebrity is showcased. & E! basically covers the beginnings, tragedies, downfalls, yada yada of different celeb's lives. keanu reeves' story is pretty tragic. his gf died in a road accident 2 yrs (i think?) after she gave birth to their still borned baby..then river phoenix whom he was close too OD-ed. so sad. (i digress. river phoenix was quite cute..hmm)
im once again reminded i lead a very charmed life. dun need the glamour or the red carpets. im fine where i am thank you very much. :) ¶ 9:34 PM 0 Comments
Thursday, June 9
happy 6mths my dear.
how do i love thee? let me count the ways.
like a child has innocence.
like rapunzel has tresses.
like new zealand has cows.
like a coop has fowls.
like the sky has stars.
like the Red that is Mars.
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like a child has innocence.
like rapunzel has tresses.
like new zealand has cows.
like a coop has fowls.
like the sky has stars.
like the Red that is Mars.
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Redundant so i Reuse thereby Recycling.
hahaha. i feel so bad. im sorry marmy!! im really not wasting your money & i am getting an education!!! but hey! i ran out of newspaper, magazine paper doesnt absorb as well. &! these were lying around! save the earth!! tree huggers say aye!! ¶ 10:28 PM 0 Comments
hahaha. i feel so bad. im sorry marmy!! im really not wasting your money & i am getting an education!!! but hey! i ran out of newspaper, magazine paper doesnt absorb as well. &! these were lying around! save the earth!! tree huggers say aye!! ¶ 10:28 PM 0 Comments
a way with words.
hahaha..im proud to say. i found the best use i can think of, for old notes. notes that cost so much to print. & if you'll please observe, remained untouched throughout this semester. :P ¶ 10:26 PM 0 Comments
hahaha..im proud to say. i found the best use i can think of, for old notes. notes that cost so much to print. & if you'll please observe, remained untouched throughout this semester. :P ¶ 10:26 PM 0 Comments
5-o
one last paper till it's time for me to go home again. :). yes, 2 have gone by & im jus glad. dun wanna think about those 2 papers anymore. shall jus leave it all to Him. come results then i'll start thinking about them again.
yesterday was really good. i totally vegged out in from of the teevee for like..7hrs. jus flipping channels. prog after prog. interestingly enough the 3 i flipped thru - MTV, discovery Health & E! were all doing progs on plastic surgery. so it was a whole series of progs on pple getting rhinoplasty, liposuction, tummy tucks, face lifts & breast augmentations. (hMM. now i realize those were like the only ops i saw.) liposuction didnt look that bad. it was breast augmentations and tummy tucks that looked a little more scary. in the first few progs, i couldnt bring myself to look when the doc lifted up a flap of skin to put a nose piece in, or when they cut off slabs of skin to do a tummy tuck..but towards to end of the night, i was fairly desensitized and tired i guess, & i could watch it all without flinching. made me think more about rhinoplasty and getting that nose bridge i've always whined about :P
alas, another fan of the media bites the dust. ¶ 12:56 PM 0 Comments
yesterday was really good. i totally vegged out in from of the teevee for like..7hrs. jus flipping channels. prog after prog. interestingly enough the 3 i flipped thru - MTV, discovery Health & E! were all doing progs on plastic surgery. so it was a whole series of progs on pple getting rhinoplasty, liposuction, tummy tucks, face lifts & breast augmentations. (hMM. now i realize those were like the only ops i saw.) liposuction didnt look that bad. it was breast augmentations and tummy tucks that looked a little more scary. in the first few progs, i couldnt bring myself to look when the doc lifted up a flap of skin to put a nose piece in, or when they cut off slabs of skin to do a tummy tuck..but towards to end of the night, i was fairly desensitized and tired i guess, & i could watch it all without flinching. made me think more about rhinoplasty and getting that nose bridge i've always whined about :P
alas, another fan of the media bites the dust. ¶ 12:56 PM 0 Comments
Monday, June 6
1 day & counting
hehehe..my downstairs neighbours!! haha..i wasnt spying..i was having lunch & i heard this familiar clanking..& i knew it was a barby before i even smelt anything. it's a super happs barby grill la!!! like a full grown one!! u noe the type that has a grill & a 'frying' area. (like the one the Cohens have!! ALTHO i do have a bagel slicer like the one the Cohens use!! hahaha!! thank you sweetie!!) *sigghh* the things that nice, sunny & fairly warm autumn days do to pple - who have a bbq pit *snarl*. well im going back in to my hole. where my notes & books may continue taunting me.
~ all i needed was the love you gave
all i needed for another day
& all i ever knew
only you ~ ¶ 1:08 PM 0 Comments
hehehe..my downstairs neighbours!! haha..i wasnt spying..i was having lunch & i heard this familiar clanking..& i knew it was a barby before i even smelt anything. it's a super happs barby grill la!!! like a full grown one!! u noe the type that has a grill & a 'frying' area. (like the one the Cohens have!! ALTHO i do have a bagel slicer like the one the Cohens use!! hahaha!! thank you sweetie!!) *sigghh* the things that nice, sunny & fairly warm autumn days do to pple - who have a bbq pit *snarl*. well im going back in to my hole. where my notes & books may continue taunting me.
~ all i needed was the love you gave
all i needed for another day
& all i ever knew
only you ~ ¶ 1:08 PM 0 Comments
Sunday, June 5
resigned
it's jus not gonna happen la. 15 lecs more. no way it's gonna happen tonight. have but myself to blame. too much slacking a week or so ago.
"hmm..think i shall do..1 lec today.."
few days later...
"yea..1 more lec today..will start cramming tmr.definitely."
you think i'd learn u noe. after 15 yrs in sch. dun seem to have learnt the most basic not to mention essential rule. RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW. & NO not nex sem. THIS one. sigh.
wad to do wad to do..doesnt help mark's connecting flight from narita to spore got delayed by a whole night. bah. well, enjoy tokyo dearest. you got an extra holiday spot! lucky :) hope you're having more fun than i am. too bad it's late and you cant go shopping. hopefully 7-11 has the blueberry pocky!!! *crossed fingers, toes & eyes* counting the hrs till tmr my dear.. ¶ 7:58 PM 0 Comments
"hmm..think i shall do..1 lec today.."
few days later...
"yea..1 more lec today..will start cramming tmr.definitely."
you think i'd learn u noe. after 15 yrs in sch. dun seem to have learnt the most basic not to mention essential rule. RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW. & NO not nex sem. THIS one. sigh.
wad to do wad to do..doesnt help mark's connecting flight from narita to spore got delayed by a whole night. bah. well, enjoy tokyo dearest. you got an extra holiday spot! lucky :) hope you're having more fun than i am. too bad it's late and you cant go shopping. hopefully 7-11 has the blueberry pocky!!! *crossed fingers, toes & eyes* counting the hrs till tmr my dear.. ¶ 7:58 PM 0 Comments
siao liao
i've got today to finish studying 1 whole semester's worth of notes for jus 1 subject. doesnt sound like alot. but looking at my stack of 36 lecs i really wanna give up. (im on lec #16 and it's already 2:45pm. unfortunately staying up till 3, 4 or 5am does not mean i get a longer sunday) but that would definitely mean flunking - as studying would mean possibly marginally getting at least bloody 50 mcq qns right.
i dunno if it's jus me, but half way thru a set of notes. i realized i was talking to myself. no, not mummuring or umbling or making "hmm" or "ahhhs" sounds. i MEAN talking - "okay..so if....then..oh..okay okay so that's why...ahh..right right.." half way thru one of these i stopped and thought to myself. do other pple do this or is it jus crazy ol' me? after i concluded everyone has their own way of studying, i continued with my notes..scribbling..writing. arguing with myself. that's right! i 1 up-ed myself and decided. why stop at talking? have a debate! argue my point! all this happened without me realizing it. until i realized it. & then i thought. talking is one thing. arguing. nah. cannot be normal.
as i consciously lose grip of my sanity. i thought of my friends who were probably doing something really fun. & sane. arguing, maybe. but they probably had someone in front of them. Grrrreat. *pats self on back* << (i wont be surprised if my frens have at this pt arranged their departures to wherever to coincide with my arrival. wont be offended if you do. really. i UNDERSTAND.)
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i dunno if it's jus me, but half way thru a set of notes. i realized i was talking to myself. no, not mummuring or umbling or making "hmm" or "ahhhs" sounds. i MEAN talking - "okay..so if....then..oh..okay okay so that's why...ahh..right right.." half way thru one of these i stopped and thought to myself. do other pple do this or is it jus crazy ol' me? after i concluded everyone has their own way of studying, i continued with my notes..scribbling..writing. arguing with myself. that's right! i 1 up-ed myself and decided. why stop at talking? have a debate! argue my point! all this happened without me realizing it. until i realized it. & then i thought. talking is one thing. arguing. nah. cannot be normal.
as i consciously lose grip of my sanity. i thought of my friends who were probably doing something really fun. & sane. arguing, maybe. but they probably had someone in front of them. Grrrreat. *pats self on back* << (i wont be surprised if my frens have at this pt arranged their departures to wherever to coincide with my arrival. wont be offended if you do. really. i UNDERSTAND.)
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Thursday, June 2
planning..
i've discovered im really anal about some things. like PLANNING! haha. i noe! i think that's why im usually very punctual. right vic? you can clobber me when you get back from korea & when you've officially becomed "long de chuan ren" - i'd be honoured :)
so anyways. today. my planning & envy over mark's time in the states has brought me to this: post grad trip. we have to go somewhere my dearest(s)!! please please please?! :) jo , jacq grace & i graduate around the same time (i think..). so, angel and vic. please save some of your pay for our post grad trip. angel & jo: hold out from bags for abit can?? hahaha..we can go on our trip THEN we go crazy buying beautiful bags and shoes together okayy??
where shall we go my friends?? if we go to like. europe, we can count on jo and jacq to be our tour guides. & if we go somewhere closer like, KL (abit near but hey, tis company that counts.) angel & vic can show us around!! grace, you & i can jus kick back & shop. hahaha. we wont have to worry about getting all the rest lost!!! yeay! :)
there is no way we're gonna go to australia tho. i refuse. it's not right. that's like saying we go to orchard and and stay in a hotel and pretend to be tourists. DOESN'T COUNT! haha. so my darlings. a very reasonable reason to start working those brilliant brains of yours again.
where shall we go?
ps: i think charoenchai's gonna be back in asia sometime mid nex yr! woohoO!! tried convincing jo that europe ish but a leetle detour from vietnam, thailand and/or cambodia *big grin* ¶ 10:41 PM 0 Comments
so anyways. today. my planning & envy over mark's time in the states has brought me to this: post grad trip. we have to go somewhere my dearest(s)!! please please please?! :) jo , jacq grace & i graduate around the same time (i think..). so, angel and vic. please save some of your pay for our post grad trip. angel & jo: hold out from bags for abit can?? hahaha..we can go on our trip THEN we go crazy buying beautiful bags and shoes together okayy??
where shall we go my friends?? if we go to like. europe, we can count on jo and jacq to be our tour guides. & if we go somewhere closer like, KL (abit near but hey, tis company that counts.) angel & vic can show us around!! grace, you & i can jus kick back & shop. hahaha. we wont have to worry about getting all the rest lost!!! yeay! :)
there is no way we're gonna go to australia tho. i refuse. it's not right. that's like saying we go to orchard and and stay in a hotel and pretend to be tourists. DOESN'T COUNT! haha. so my darlings. a very reasonable reason to start working those brilliant brains of yours again.
where shall we go?
ps: i think charoenchai's gonna be back in asia sometime mid nex yr! woohoO!! tried convincing jo that europe ish but a leetle detour from vietnam, thailand and/or cambodia *big grin* ¶ 10:41 PM 0 Comments
