Sunday, June 5
siao liao
i've got today to finish studying 1 whole semester's worth of notes for jus 1 subject. doesnt sound like alot. but looking at my stack of 36 lecs i really wanna give up. (im on lec #16 and it's already 2:45pm. unfortunately staying up till 3, 4 or 5am does not mean i get a longer sunday) but that would definitely mean flunking - as studying would mean possibly marginally getting at least bloody 50 mcq qns right.
i dunno if it's jus me, but half way thru a set of notes. i realized i was talking to myself. no, not mummuring or umbling or making "hmm" or "ahhhs" sounds. i MEAN talking - "okay..so if....then..oh..okay okay so that's why...ahh..right right.." half way thru one of these i stopped and thought to myself. do other pple do this or is it jus crazy ol' me? after i concluded everyone has their own way of studying, i continued with my notes..scribbling..writing. arguing with myself. that's right! i 1 up-ed myself and decided. why stop at talking? have a debate! argue my point! all this happened without me realizing it. until i realized it. & then i thought. talking is one thing. arguing. nah. cannot be normal.
as i consciously lose grip of my sanity. i thought of my friends who were probably doing something really fun. & sane. arguing, maybe. but they probably had someone in front of them. Grrrreat. *pats self on back* << (i wont be surprised if my frens have at this pt arranged their departures to wherever to coincide with my arrival. wont be offended if you do. really. i UNDERSTAND.)
¶ 12:42 PM
i dunno if it's jus me, but half way thru a set of notes. i realized i was talking to myself. no, not mummuring or umbling or making "hmm" or "ahhhs" sounds. i MEAN talking - "okay..so if....then..oh..okay okay so that's why...ahh..right right.." half way thru one of these i stopped and thought to myself. do other pple do this or is it jus crazy ol' me? after i concluded everyone has their own way of studying, i continued with my notes..scribbling..writing. arguing with myself. that's right! i 1 up-ed myself and decided. why stop at talking? have a debate! argue my point! all this happened without me realizing it. until i realized it. & then i thought. talking is one thing. arguing. nah. cannot be normal.
as i consciously lose grip of my sanity. i thought of my friends who were probably doing something really fun. & sane. arguing, maybe. but they probably had someone in front of them. Grrrreat. *pats self on back* << (i wont be surprised if my frens have at this pt arranged their departures to wherever to coincide with my arrival. wont be offended if you do. really. i UNDERSTAND.)
¶ 12:42 PM
