jus me. ever seen one of those ads/trailers for movies or whatever, where there's 1 person standing in the middle of a busy street and everythign is jus flashing by, going by in fast forward mode, but the person jus stands in the midst of it all, seemingly, strangely unperturbed. & almost always with a plain, expressionless face.

i reckon it's a nice place to be. being at peace with yourself, feeling serene enough to jus let everything whizz by, let the world go by & not feel like you have to up & go with the entire pack. but jus do whatever is comfortable and natural to you at that time.
that'll be nice.
im not sure if anyone evers gets to such a point, even in retirement.

in any case..i love my friends..thank you for wanting to help lift the load off my shoulders. thank you for caring & trying to help. my world revolves pretty much around the people im closest too. i find myself in the ditch with them and im not complaining. please do not feel guilty my friends. AT ALL :) cause sometimes i feel like all i can do to make the world a better place is to listen. sit & listen. sit, be quiet and listen. if i cant do anything else, i can jus be there. actually, that's kindda fucked isnt it. cause i cant be there with all you guys. crap. well, i hope that even if im not there physically, you guys noe my ears are always open & available. all day. all night.
:) muahmuah.


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