i love you. i really do :)to see u smile gives me reason to wake up in the morning to hear u laugh gives me courage to hang on till the evening to hold ur hand gives me reason to let go of my fears to smell ur hair gives me reason to fight back my tears to stroke ur cheek gives me reason to believe to be the one u love i never have to do anything to see you smile, to hear you laugh to hold your hand, to smell your hair to stroke your cheek, to feel your heart beat. daily pleasures i truly miss, simplest pleasures that now make me weep. i hold my arms out & i have absolute belief no matter what it may be you're right there for me. i cant be with you all the time but please noe you're always on my mind. seeing every kiss, hug or hello exchanged makes my heart ache but there's so much more i can take. if only because i take comfort, i draw strength that i truly noe, we'll be okay. i may be back more often than i should be. i may miss classes for that extra day i get to spend with you. but it never makes leaving any easier. it never makes being apart from you any better. i wish i could change some things. but i noe they're for the best tho they may take all our strength. i really hope no one ever has to be away from those they hold close in their heart. i really wish we'd sometimes stop thinking and jus feel. i wish we could miraculously treasure every moment we have with our family and friends. and remember that a lifetime isnt long. forget the little things. forget the petty tiffs.dont reminisce only to wish somethings could be taken back. reminisce & think that was time well spent & you wouldnt change a thing. give memory more credit and fill it with things worthy of our 'only so many years'.
i still dun adhere to carpe diem cos i think that's abit idealistic. we're human afterall and we're prone to sqaundering the good things we have. to take for granted the blessings bestowed upon us. did the bride noe her groom wouldnt meet her at the alter, decked out in his best gear but instead get hit by a car and never get there, not even in his shabbiest outfit. i do believe tho, that if everytime we're doing something, whatever it may be, chores, work, fighting or whining, we take time to remember and re-consider honestly, what's important to us. it'll make being thankful alittle easier everytime. and maybe alittle less arrogant, self occupied and self indulgent.
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