Monday, July 25
one of those days..
there's that ONE kindda day. they dont come often. but when they do it, it's usually fairly intense & they stay for abit. am having that day right now. i've lived in this same area the past 4 yrs but i've never stopped to look. today while i was on the tram home, i thought i'd take some pics of what the weather is like right now. but then while i was posting them up i realized somethings i never did before, like that gigantic-flower-arrangement-sundial. it's really pretty & they change the flowers or sometimes they create words with the flowers if there's an event or an occasion. then there's the botanical gardens opposite my place. i do actually remember going there once tho. not jus run or drive ard it to get ard it. laine & i once decided to take a walk on the other side and we ended up on this side, closer to home. we rolled down the hills. again & again, scrambling up each time, racing each other to the top. haha. that was a good day. we walked home with grass stains on our clothes but couldnt care less.
ive come to accept the fact that im at that point in my life. i daresay this is only the first point so far. im not sure if there'll be others in the future. this point is truly life changing. the past 22 yrs have brought about changes but none as life altering. this point, isnt even a distinct point at all. but it's like now that im here, there's so much behind me & even more ahead. things that'll change my entire life.
things i've never come across before - will i recognize it before it's too late?
things no one can teach me how to handle - what if i make a mistake?
things that need so much strength & knowledge to get thru, ironically i noe it's only after i get thru it that i'll realize how much i've gained and learnt - what if i fall & dun pick myself up until it's to late?
these things i've seen others go thru. those before me. & while i've watched & sympathized, it's so different going thru it personally. though i have questions that go on & on. i'm sure of one thing. & it's possibly the most important of all. i have no need for fear of abandonment. i have no need for fear of failure. i have no need for fear of death or life.
"even there your hand will guide me, your strength will support me. If i try to hide in the darkness, the night becomes light around me" - psalm 139: 10-11. ¶ 9:54 PM
ive come to accept the fact that im at that point in my life. i daresay this is only the first point so far. im not sure if there'll be others in the future. this point is truly life changing. the past 22 yrs have brought about changes but none as life altering. this point, isnt even a distinct point at all. but it's like now that im here, there's so much behind me & even more ahead. things that'll change my entire life.
things i've never come across before - will i recognize it before it's too late?
things no one can teach me how to handle - what if i make a mistake?
things that need so much strength & knowledge to get thru, ironically i noe it's only after i get thru it that i'll realize how much i've gained and learnt - what if i fall & dun pick myself up until it's to late?
these things i've seen others go thru. those before me. & while i've watched & sympathized, it's so different going thru it personally. though i have questions that go on & on. i'm sure of one thing. & it's possibly the most important of all. i have no need for fear of abandonment. i have no need for fear of failure. i have no need for fear of death or life.
"even there your hand will guide me, your strength will support me. If i try to hide in the darkness, the night becomes light around me" - psalm 139: 10-11. ¶ 9:54 PM
