Thursday, January 5
wrong way
it starts with a weird heat that starts from the back
& works its way to the front
without you even noeing.
it gets warmer & warmer
till it hits you.
at this point its do or die.
u either hold it with all your might.
or u fan or look upwards or don't blink....
or you just let them flow.
on & on...
you let them go...
then ur nose gets warm as well. funny.
& you can feel it getting red too.
but as they stream down your cheeks.
as your nose runs.
ur shoulders heave.
u realize it doesnt do anything.
it's still there.
u'll still hurt.
but thank goodness you're alone & u looked brave as you left the room.
that you held that blink as you closed the door.
that you could flip your hair & wipe ur cheek.
that you could smile & raise ur eyebrows to intercept that sob.
that you could fake laugh as you took that call
but thank goodness that you noe she's brave.
& thank goodness she said to you "i feel God's presence & it's very strong"
& thank goodness she wants to fight it.
& thank goodness she's got faith.
& thank goodness she noes she's never alone. ¶ 9:48 PM
& works its way to the front
without you even noeing.
it gets warmer & warmer
till it hits you.
at this point its do or die.
u either hold it with all your might.
or u fan or look upwards or don't blink....
or you just let them flow.
on & on...
you let them go...
then ur nose gets warm as well. funny.
& you can feel it getting red too.
but as they stream down your cheeks.
as your nose runs.
ur shoulders heave.
u realize it doesnt do anything.
it's still there.
u'll still hurt.
but thank goodness you're alone & u looked brave as you left the room.
that you held that blink as you closed the door.
that you could flip your hair & wipe ur cheek.
that you could smile & raise ur eyebrows to intercept that sob.
that you could fake laugh as you took that call
but thank goodness that you noe she's brave.
& thank goodness she said to you "i feel God's presence & it's very strong"
& thank goodness she wants to fight it.
& thank goodness she's got faith.
& thank goodness she noes she's never alone. ¶ 9:48 PM
